Monday, March 30, 2020

Sound & Vision

1.  Jill Freedmen's Resurrection City, 1968:  There are no photographs of civil rights leaders, or Hollywood celebrities; there are only a few pictures of marches and street demonstrations.  Instead there are people. Poor people. The people who waded through the mud and piss and built the shanties that gave Resurrection City its shape,who were its community.  They were the forgotten; Freedmen makes us remember them.  The were supposedly invisible; she forces us to look into their eyes. This is what photography is supposed to do.

2.  Coltrane's A Love Supreme:  I've been thinking a lot about McCoy Tyner.  His Inner Voices was the first jazz record I ever bought with my own money.  I still have that now-crusty old piece of vinyl.   A Love Supreme has been in my car stereo for days.  It is "Pursuance," the third movement that obsesses me.  I've listened to it over and over again.  Beginning with Elvin Jones's drum solo, and then a short phrase from Trane, Tyner's long run kicks in around the two minute mark.  He's like a bulldozer plowing the path that Coltrane then follows in his journey towards the ecstatic.  Of course it's a prayer; it's an expression of gratitude.  Something we can all use in our time of isolation and uncertainty.

3.  DJ Spooky, That Subliminal Kid's Dubtometry (Thirsty Ear, 2003):  Fractured fairy tales from the Year Zero.  I've realized I have a personal collection of crisis management music that reemerges during times of trouble.  Mad Professor and Lee Perry may be the brightest lights on these remixes but the standouts are at the fringes of the record--J Live, DJ Goo, Twilight Circus Dub Sound System.  Perhaps dub is my way of making sense of chaos?  Deep bass, ghostly apparitions bleeding into the sonic stew and then disappearing, hollowed out histories where all the linear narratives of the original songs are chopped up and made new in ways that tell different stories about the now.  The ghosts are always there for us.


4.  John Prine, "Sam Stone" from his S/T lp (Atlantic 1971):  I've been rereading Michael Herr's Dispatches for an online discussion with one of my classes.  When I'm building the syllabus, I tend to agonize over the Vietnam-era readings, sometimes skipping them altogether. More often I return to Herr's classic memoir.  I do so for the most selfish of reasons; every time I read it I think, "I really wish I could write like this."  And now we hear that the great John Prine has the dreaded virus.  I'm betting he pulls through.  But for the semesters I choose not to assign a long read for the Vietnam era, I have students listen to and discuss Prine's song, "Sam Stone."  Like the Herr book, I always think to myself, I really wish I could write like this. 


5.  A couple of weeks ago, the Athens-Clarke County Commission debated the mayor's directive to limit the numbers of people meeting in public spaces and whether or not to "shelter in place."  Beth and I sat on our couch and watched the livestream on YouTube.  The deliberations were serious, and despite the wide variations in ideology, our commissioners worked in good faith.   But only one of the commissioners, Ovita Thornton, pointed out the obvious and most intractable problem posed by our invisible enemy.  What about the homeless?  Hundreds of our neighbors live without shelter.  We step over them as we do business downtown; they stand strategically at intersections around town asking for help.  There are homeless camps under the overpasses and in the groves of trees around town.  How do those individuals social distance?  Where do they seek healthcare when they begin to exhibit the symptoms of this virus?  How effective is a shelter in place directive if there is a large and growing constituency huddled in anonymity outside the boundaries of our community?  It's telling that no one on the commission took up Mrs. Thornton's challenge.  No one.  It was as if she hadn't asked the question at all.

Athens is a wonderful place to live.  We are lucky to be here.  But the whole "bustling college town" line comes up way short when you consider that nearly 36% of Athenians live in poverty.  We champion our music and art and the great contributions made by the university, and we should.  But not if we pay tribute to those things while turning a blind eye to those who are too easily thrown away.  We can see it now; it stares us in the face.  There is no healthcare infrastructure capable of dealing with these problems.  Mental health facilities are negligible, especially the for the populations that need them most.  Drug treatment?  Almost non-existent.  Insert "leaky boat" metaphor here.

So the virus has shined a light on the sickness.  The old myths are dead.  The time is now for a New Honesty.  We can talk about the limitations and weaknesses of the system, but isn't the truth that there is no system?  I'm done with the American Dream, and especially the American dreamers.  Your myths are lies and your lies bring death.  There are too many of us standing outside your system, invisible, disposable, and ignored.  It ain't about differences of opinion or partisanship or whatever.  Its that too many people just don't care.  Maybe we could create a substantive foundation for change by actually seeing one another.  Stop turning away.  Stop pretending you don't see what is in front of your face.


Friday, March 27, 2020

Confessions of a Pathological Procrastinator

My work gives me a lethal flexibility to procrastinate.  I can rationalize putting things off in the name of fulfilling some other "obligation."  My ever-present "To Do" list only grows longer.  Given my inability to set priorities, I convince myself that as long as something gets crossed off, I'm making some sort of "progress."  The marginalia that catch my eye, like bright shiny coins along a path, draw me away, and I convince myself that it is part of some process or maybe the raw material for some future project.  Sometimes I am even right.

For the past three years, I've been working on a monograph. I've made progress; a little bit here, a little bit there.  Chapters, murky at the outset, coalesce and take shape.  I've rolled out chunks for scholarly conferences and public lectures.  But there are long sections of the narrative, important to the story I'm telling, that sit out on the horizon mocking and unfinished.  I know they are important.  I resist the inevitable confrontation required to bring them to heel.  Their burden is in my head, but I can't lay them down.  Like Giles Corey of Salem, I stubbornly resist doing the work.  I demand of my internal universe, "more weight!" Of course this sounds more dramatic than it really is; I don't need the Puritan divines to bury me under rocks.  I put the pressure on myself. 

When I write, I keep certain books close at hand; writers whose work I admire, books on the art of writing.  Hemingway, Didion, Morrison, Orwell, and Baldwin.  I'm excited to see Amitava Kumar's Everyday I Write the Book coming out today.  The excerpt on writerly routines published on Lithub this morning struck a nerve--or was it a swift kick?  That's what I'm looking for, a routine.  Consistency is not my forte, and mine shift with the project.  Truth be told, these blog posts are meant to prod me from my lethargy.  My writing, like a flabby muscle, requires this sort of exercise.  Sometimes I worry about how many words I have left?  But that's just another excuse.  I won't find the answer to that question without stringing the words together in the first place. 


Thursday, March 26, 2020

Lists for the Dying (or Mildly Discomfited)

1. Ohio with death and dignity
2. Walks with Iris
3. Jamaican literature and the ghosts of revolutions past
4. Japanese psych
5. Toni Morrison's Jazz

Keeping track of what is happening/not happening in the middle of a global pandemic isn't easy.  I could joke about how little our lifestyle has changed, the shut-ins basking in the time of "shelter in place" diktats, and the manufactured shortages of a tired, old capitalism.  But in spite of the fact that this should be "our time," the sense of unease and dread that hangs over this place, all places, makes the sweet pill bitter.

I know what I am supposed to be doing and maybe I'll get there.  In the meantime, the brain flits from one bit of esoterica to the next.  That's what the brain has always done.  The search for structure in this age of confused reckoning is both quixotic, and necessary.  Lists to remember me by; narratives to give shape to the incomprehensible noise of it all.  So what's the story, morning glory?

6. Marcia Douglas's The Marvelous Equations of the Dread
7. Grace Hale's Cool Town:  How Athens, Georgia, Launched Alternative Music and Changed American Culture
8. Wifredo Lam
9. Bjork's "Virus"
10. The Saints' "(I'm) Stranded"